Dropping in.

I'll have to change my routine; tighten free time; assume more short-term debt; and deal with my own fears and insecurities about my rusty academic abilities.
Frankly, I'm terrified.

I battled with the thought of going back to school from the very last day I attended college.  Never once have I regretted dropping out in December of 2010.  Then why go back, you ask?  First, you must know why I dropped out in the first place. 

Reason one: Money.  With no parent to co-sign my parent plus loan, I had to pick up every FASFA (Federal Aid) loan which came with a hefty interest rate and no money left for books or a food plan. 

Reason two (This is the biggest reason): I had no clue what I wanted to do "when I grew up".  I battled with this for so many years.  Growing up, many of my friends knew they wanted to be a nurse, teacher, biologist, philosopher, etc.  I never had a gravitational pull secretly guiding me into a field for possible career choices.

Reason three: I didn't enjoy it.  After completing almost 33 general education credits, I had had enough.  And with no direction for a major (I changed majors 4 times), the dead end of my secondary education was gaining on me.

Thus, I dropped out; got a full time job, received a promotion, and gained full-time benefits included health, dental, and vision insurance and even paid vacation time up to two weeks!  Not a single one of my 21 year old friends had that.  Now, you may ask, why go back if your job is so great?  Although I like my job, have great hours, and even work with some pretty great people.  I'm lacking my full potential.  Truthfully, I feel less smart in my grown-up job than I did as a 20year old in a freshman math course.

As for now, I am filling all the necessary paperwork for financial aid, studying 30mins a day for my placement test, and planning out a three year plan for work and school life.

Next week, I will post what I am planning on going back to school for, how I came to that decision, and what I am going to do to remain motivated to attain my new goal.

Thanks for reading. I mean it. This reader support system is one of the best things I have gained since my decision to go back to college.