Is it possible for me to forget about my past or pretend it did not happen and still be able to progress in my future? Or do I think because I have something unfinished in my past, it prevents me progressing in my future?I have to ask myself, do I want to look back to yesterday?
The answer: I think I have to.
Frankly, I did not put my best foot forward while attending the University of Wisconsin-Oshkosh. It was over my head and I was uninterested, not to mention, I lacked a serious amount of passion. I am fearful of failure as I approach the finals steps of entering back into college.
As cheesey as it may seem, I think of my five younger siblings when my going gets tough. Liz, my oldest younger sibling is expecting a baby and I would love to be there for her and show her that it's never too late to turn things around in life, even when it's not the easiest of tasks. Evan, my oldest younger brother, just entered into high school and I feel he could greatly benefit from my going back to college. Not to mention, I would be the first college grad in my family. That's pretty cool. Levi, Madison, and Joshua are my three youngest siblings and although I would like to believe they are far from their college years, kids grow up faster than we'd like to think.
Looking back at yesterday can only make me stronger while also making my knees shake. I was young, selfish, and immature when I first attempted college. And now, I am an adult, confident, and loved, which makes all the difference.
Best Wishes Until Next Time.
Side Note: I got a tattoo this week that symbolizes my five siblings. The flower that has five petals represents each of my siblings and the two sets of leaves are the four parents that my siblings came from. I love it. It was perfect timing as I am collaborating everything for my entry back into college next semester. Picture below!
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